‘I Survived Retrograde’
shot by @KahlilAmani / @HoltAvPhotography
pain, in retrograde. - Jamal Virgo
These past 4 months have been a real journey for me. I’m not one to put my trials on display but you deserve a glimpse at the pain in my elevation.
In February of this year within a span of 1 week, I went to my grandfather’s funeral & had to unexpectedly move out of my apartment. I moved back home with my parents for 2 months with a promise to myself that I would only be there for a month.
Within that time living at my parents, I lost a love I thought was meant forever. Hard to describe the feeling of having a picture of how things are supposed to be with someone & its ripped to pieces. In my process of processing my new situation I crafted 3 songs that accurately depict my feelings over a month of pulling myself back together. & it just so happened it was during Mercury’s Retrograde.
On March 31, one of my favorite artists was taken from us, Nip Hussle Tha Great & I was devastated. About 6-8 hours later that same day, in the middle of the night I was robbed of about $4K worth of belongings which included all of my music gear. My materials had been ripped away from me & I was left the physical scar to prove this moment of a new rising in my soul.
All this pain birthed a new path of love for myself & the moment around me. I realized that my gift to the world doesn’t reside in a computer hard drive. It’s in my heart & soul & that can’t ever be taken away. I have a lot to be thankful for & to experience when I walk outside & have the privilege of literally being alive. I also realized that as an artist the name van Jamme had ran its course. It was time for my fans & MYSELF to get to know the real me in my music. & there was born Jamal Virgo. As you will come to hear, this is a name that feels more like home to who I am & who I am growing to be. Jamal in all aspects & spectrums.
April 1st (yes the next day after I got robbed) I moved to a new spot near the beach like I promised I would. I crafted one of my most honest EP’s (pain, in retrograde.) & changed my artist name like I promised myself I would. There are a lot of people, plans & expectations that didn’t show up when I thought I needed them, but what I continue to be reminded of is how reliable I am to myself & the things that are meant to be here for us will be.
I AM A GREAT. & I always will be if I stick to being me & bettering the man in the mirror. My music will take me far but being my self will forever take me higher.
With all that being said, I would like to share this EP “pain, in retrograde.”
All Written & Produced by me.
I hope that you take something from it & maybe find some peace knowing that we all go through pain, but every day we can make a conscious effort to be better & be happy. Moments don’t always last forever between people, but the privilege of being loved does.
Thank You & I’ll be back very soon with more music